Keep your eyes out for the encore!
05.07.2010 - 06.07.2010 15 °C
As I sit here in this studio apartment, I am reluctant to leave. In fact, I don't even want to write about leaving. But I feel that this blog needs some closure. So I will go through my last day here in New Zealand, and let you all see that yes, the city girl worked on a farm and loved it!!
This is Em and I working on tags and writing down numbers. I felt so important with a clipboard haha. I waited until after the job started to tell Craig that I might have slight dyslexia... he put his head in his hands haha.
Here are the men! I say men, because there is no way I can call them boys. The men down here are tough. They eat rocks for breakfast! Dave is the one wrestling the cow to tag her ear, his dad is just to the left in the black and yellow overalls, and I never met the other man properly, but he was nice.
Last but not least, my proudest moment! I masterd a standard on the wrong side of the road/car! Which is great, because I had such a hard time with that while back home, but here it just came natural. I think it had something to do with me being a lefty!
All in all, I loved my trip here in New Zealand. I cannot wait to come back. Now before I left I promised myself I wasn't going to end this blog with something dramatic or sappy, but after this trip I have made a self discovery that I feel is worth sharing.
As most of you know, this past year has been extremely difficult for me and my soul. I have learned a lot of new things about myself that I never knew I had in me. I supported myself through school, I took on a more-than-full semester, had a religious revilation, and helped my dad save my mom from death. All of that helped strengthen me as a woman, but as great as all of that growth is, I was missing who I used to be. I told a close friend once that I had hated how closed off I had become, and I wasn't happy with myself for it. The best part of my New Zealand trip is that I found my old self. I am more open than I have been for years, I'm not afraid to fail, and I really don't give a rats ass about what people think about me. I have gained my confedence back! I love it! I am so glad I took off time to relax and go on adventures, because I would have never found that in the mac lab back home. Truely.
There are a few things in life that I have found to be 100% true:
1. Good things come to those who wait.
2. Hardwork pays off.
3. Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.
I am at peace with myself and the world, and these moments are rare and beautiful. If they happen to you, make sure you soak it in like the sun. Enjoy it while it lasts!
I will leave you guys with a poem that I found and fell in love with my freshman year of uni:
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
William Ernest Henley